Bitchy post watch out

I just wrote a very long, emotional entry here, and, wouldn't you know, my computer shut right off. So here's a synopsis:
-I'm not a always look on the bright side of everything person all the time, people who are can only be kidding themselves, too much of the time happiness is not the first emotion you'll have when something happens.
-I'm getting more depressed than I have been in a long time
-Wearing this knee/leg brace, being stuck in this house is driving me crazy
-My parents are freaking me out about money, not my money, theirs and how they're worrying about it and it makes for a whole hell of alot of stress in a house I'm tired of living in.
-I feel like I'm shutting out my friends because I'm the only one left in OKemos, and, after watching so many of my friends move farther away, I want to be close to my friens who I am lucky(thats selfish) enough to have still in EL.
-I want a studio apartment. I know which one and where, and why. One reason, as I was just informed, the ac is off, great. I reallllly should have gone to Colin's.
-I need a financial boost in order to get the place to live and get on with the job I have waiting for me. I can't get one right now though. Studio apartment, not job, as I said I have a job waiting.
-So I'm depressed,broken, lonely, and irked right now. I am very happy I have people who care about me, especially my overworked, sympathetic, and understanding boyfriend.

Damnit, he's taking care of his mom's house right now too, and theres a hottub. Fuck. I really should have gone over there tonight. I'll go tomorrow, maybe we'll hang out all afternoon and evening watching movies doing nothing.

I promise I'll follow this with something more pleasant.